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It's amazing how you can keep so much bottled up inside of you and you can just walk around and nobody has any idea.
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Anyone can become angry—that is easy. But to be angry with the right person, to the right degree, at the right time, for the right purpose, and in the right way—this is not easy.
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Loose lips, sink ships,
I'm tired.
(This is not a suicidal post.)
It's just the fourth day of school and my bag is weighing much more than what it seems like it should be. 6.5 hours of sleep for consecutive days will never be enough to keep me active during school hours. Today's a hectic and brain draining day. Dislike having Chemistry practical right after recess, and PE after Chemistry. It's like we have to run around the school after our recess. Had quite a heavy meal during break today so I had a terrible stomachache ): Don't like to go to Geog room for Geog lesson, why can't we have it in our classroom!!! Even though there's air con in Geog room, I still prefer our own cosy classroom. I miss Miss/ Mdm Tan badly, seriously I want her to be our Form/ Co form ): And she knows us the best. Our Langarts teacher is totally the coolest LA teacher on earth~ Her lessons are really damn interesting and it's like you won't fall asleep when she's talking. Okay, maybe some exceptions haha.
Went home straight after school, to wait for the Acer repairman to come fix the computer. He got everything fixed, replaced the hard disk and left at around 3.50pm? So I changed into my Minotaur tee and went back to school for CC comp training. While I'm on my way there, Charlene was telling me how boring she was cause they're not doing anything. Okay so I went to find squadmates outside Np room and they told me that the training ended/ haven't even started.
Wonderful.
Which meant I rushed back to school for nothing -.- Aye but being such a nice person I didn't really mind cause school's just a 15 mins bus ride away~ Went back home and slept all the way from 5+ to 7. Just in time to catch Cruel Temptation. Oh yea and I had a very very weird dream, kinda scary and I remembered that I kept screaming haha!
I guess this is what Year 4 life is about- Not being able to touch the computer, only able to touch the textbooks/ notes. Dedicating my time for homework, not computer/ blog. This is gonna be hard.
A friend will hold your hand when you're in need of support.
A best friend squeezes it tighter when you say, "Leave me alone."
Everybody has a best friend some stage of his life.
A few lucky people have the same best friend throughout his life.
A best friend may not meet with you everyday or talk to you everyday.
But thinks about you and makes sure you're happy and safe.
A friend is like a street lamp.
He doesn't make the way shorter.
But he brightens it.
And make the journey easier.
One friend is enough to enjoy for a lifetime.
But one lifetime is not enough to enjoy a friend like you.
Everybody hears what you say.
A friend listens to what you say.
A best friend listens to what you don't say.
Friendship needs no demands, expectations, promises.
It only needs 2 people: me and you.
Now that's friendship.
Now, oooooops. I think I'm dead T.T
I feel like a hero,
I'm trying my best to have the positive mentality that 2010 will be a good year. Yesterday first day of school was disappointing but luckily today was alright :) And yay we got a good physics teacher, although she haven't really started teaching us but she seems good! Which is good la, hopefully she can help to pull up my lousy physics grade zzz -.-
Oh yes and we successfully had our parade today, thank goodness we don't have to do the same thing tomorrow i.e. waking up at 5.45 and reaching school at like, 6.20 -.- Don't really know how the whole thing turns out to be but I hope it's okay. Hmmm.
I kinda like my seat in class, even though it's like at the last row, the corner furthest away from the door. Cause it's like you get to see quite beautiful scenery when you look out of the window ^^ Actually it's just trees and some block of flats, not very amazing -.- But the wind there is really damn strong and I hate it. It keeps blowing my worksheet + paper everywhere~ And yknow when the wind blows and your paper gets kinda crumpled it's really irritating. I like my worksheets + notes to be darn nice i.e. no folds or whatever LOL. Yea lah, stop saying I'm very 'niao' okay~
Yea and the seat's nice cause I get to see what's going on in the whole class hehe. Me and Veron were like looking at different people and gossiping. And we get to see very interesting scenes *smirks*
This was supposed to be a very short post cause I'm damn tired. My eyes are closing now and I can totally fall asleep right now zzz. My eyes are like tearing soon ):
I don't like the new school cause it's very very inconvenient. We need to take around 5mins to walk to the hall, so wonderful. And in the morning we got scolded by a teacher cause she thinks we (ug people) change very slowly and thus we delayed the whole CID lesson thing. Yea yea yea I bet she needs one hour to change. Tell her to go march herself lor zzz.
Sometimes I get pissed/ sad for no obvious reason. It's just like I get very affected by what I saw/ read or something. Ugh I hope I can stop feeling this way cause I don't wanna become emo /:
I'm quite determined to do well this year, I'm scared that I'll be retained. I used to think that 'level up' is those 'duh' kinda thing. But after the results I got last year, I no longer think so. So Imma going to pay extra attention in class and do all my homework and read my notes regularly~ Haha okay hopefully I'll really do what I say lah -.-
Anyway,
Happy Birthday Kuanyuan! :D
And sorry for the darn last minute birthday card lol, I did it during chem lesson hahaha!
Okay I shall go finish my maths homework, then polish my badges, then pack my bag, then sleep. Yay sleep~
And a happy new year,
Note: Long post ahead
2009: In The Beginning
1. Where did you go on New Years? Countdown with family I think.
2. Who were you with? Family.
3. Did you kiss anyone on New Years? No.
4. Did you make any resolutions? Yep, but didnt achieve any of them
2009: All about YOU
1. Did you change at all this year? Yes.
2. Did you dye your hair? No.
3. Did you get your hair cut? Duh.
4. Did you change your style? Kinda.
5. Were you in school? Yep.
6. Did you get good grades? Hell no.
7. Did you have a job? Nope.
8. Did you drive? Drive myself crazy.
9. Did anyone close to you give birth? Dont think so.
10. Did you move at all? As in move house? No.
11. Did you go on any vacations? Yup think so.
12. Did you leave the country at all? Yes.
2009: Your Love Life
1. Did you break up with anyone? No.
2. Did you meet anyone special? Of course.
3. Did you fall in love?Not really lol.
2009: Friends and Enemies
1. Did you meet any new friends this year? Of course!
2. Did any of your friendships end? Yea, think so ):
3. Did you dislike anyone? Yup.
4. Did you make any new enemies? Not sure.
6. Who was your closest friend? Alot!
7. Did you grow apart from anyone? Yes, a lot.
8. Did you have any regrets when it comes to your friendships? Yeaaaaa, who doesn't?
2009: Have you
2. Had your birthday yet? Yup!
3. Kissed two or more people in the same night? No.
4. Been on a diet? NO.
5. Pulled an all nighter? Hahas, yes.
6. Drank Starbucks? Forgot.
8. Bought something(s)? DUHH.
9. Met someone special who changed your life? Kinda.
10. Been out of the province? Yes.
Random
1. What are you thinking about?
Alot of stuff.
2. Does your ex hate you?
4. Would you get married if you could right now?
Nope.
5. How did you feel when you woke up today?
Excited.
6. Your ex shows up at your door what do you do?
Talk?
7. Are you good at hiding your feelings?
Sometimes.
8. Could you ever be friends with someone that broke your heart?
Depends.
9. If you could change your eye color would you?
BLACK?!
10. Who did you last get into a big argument with?
Forgot.
11. Have you ever had a really big fight with a best friend?
Yea, it just brings us closer.
12. Do you like to have long hair or short hair?
Long, but not too long. (Reminds me I've yet to cut my hair!)
13. Are you over the age of 25?
Nope.
14. Would you be able to tell someone you love them, even if you didn't feel it?
No.
15. How do you currently make your money?
By going to school!
16. Do you want to get married & have children one day?
Yes!
17. Which of your friends do you argue with the most?
18. Have you kissed anyone in the last 4 hours?
No.
19. How many texts are in your inbox?
258
20. Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you?
Yes.
21. Who was your last text message from?
Vanessa.
22. Have you ever kissed anyone named Mike?
No.
23. Who was the last person you rode in a car with?
Parents.
24. When was the last time you cried really, really hard?
5th May.
25. Who took your profile picture?
Self timed.
26. Would you rather smile over a lie or cry over the truth?
Smile over the truth (:
27. What’s on your bedroom floor right now?
Tiles.
28. Do you trust people too easily?
Yea.
29. Are you satisfied with what you currently have in life?
Quite.
30. Have you ever cut class?
Huh?
31. Have you ever liked someone a lot older than you?
No.
32. Last thing you ate?
Self made lunch! :)
33. How many people are you texting?
One.
34. Will you be in bed within an hour?
It's 3.12pm.
35. What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had?
Milo!
36. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
I cheat :P
37. Do you hate the last girl you had a conversation with?
NO WAY.
38. Is there a girl that knows everything or almost everything about you?
Yup.
39. Where was the first time you ever kissed the last person you kissed?
No kiss.
40. Have you ever made out in a public restroom?
No.
41. Have you told anybody you loved them today?
No.
42. Do you make every decision as if your parents are watching?
No.
43. Have you ever gotten the butterflies?
Yes.
44. Do you like to run?
Heck no!
45. Is there anyone that you care more about than yourself?
Yes.
46. Do you put candy canes on your Christmas tree?
No Christmas tree.
47. Do you get snow where you live?
No but I want!
48. Do you believe in love?
Yes.
49. This year have you been heartbroken?
Yes.
50. Overall, how was 2009 for you?
Quite bad.
Something that is lost can sometimes be found,
Well, we're now on the edge of 2009, the final day. I still can't believe that today's the last day already, kinda scary. As fast as it came, another year flies by. So 2010- a new year, a new beginning, a new chapter. Looking back, we all learn things, both good and bad. I have learnt new things. I have experienced great happiness and extreme pains. I have met new friends and lost some good friends. And yet here I am, a (hopefully) stronger and more mature person :)
It's like when you level up, things get complicated,
2009 wasn't exactly a very good year. To be honest, it kinda sucked. Many things happened- gotten into a brand new class, flunked exams, lost a family member, formed new clique, made new friends, lost close friends, drifted away from (many) friends. Not to mention, our squad changed a lot- squadmates took on different roles in the unit. I became the s3 squad i/c together with Ongmin, Pris and Matthew.
Lets get high and partyae,
This year was boring. I can't really think of many significant stuff that happened this year. If I were to mention some happy and fun stuff, (in random order): STC, Shanghai, unit chalet09 will be those that come to my mind. They're not really significant, but stuff that made me really happy I guess? Those times were great, when I get to really enjoy myself and have fun :) And no matter how hard I tried to squeeze my brain juice, I could only think of these three events.
But that feeling won't last forever,
For me, 2009 was Emo (alongside with Depressing and lots and lots of PMS) There wasn't exactly a major event to make me feel this way (okay, maybe 2), it was because of many many little stuff that happened each day. I gotta admit I turn jealous very easily, I'm a little petty sometimes, and I kinda dislike people way too easily. Sometime during May/June, things got pretty serious. Thinking too much really makes you crazy and there's a period of time I can't concentrate on anything. Luckily things are okay now :) I need to learn how to let go and stop thinking so much! Alright, that shall be my new year resolution!
And the memories are all brought back.
This year might have sucked, but there're still people who made my 2009 fun and memorable :) Family, friends, squadmates! I may be eccentric, weird, angry, pissed, mean, rude sometimes/most of the time, but thanks guys for supporting me all this while! Without yall, I don't think I can even made it through this year, so thanks!!
-My Family: I love all of you! :) Even though sometimes there'll be a lot of 'sheng yin' haha, but I treasure all the times we spent together. Of course there'll be more to come!! :D
>Dad: Alright, stop reminding me, I'll go and find physics tuition soon. I know you're constantly worrying about me- my studies, my health, my attitude and the list goes on. I'm sorry for making you worry so much. I'll be more sensible next year! Promise! I know you're sad when I don't listen to you sometimes, I'll be more uhm, good girl :) Anyway thanks for everything you've done. Staying up late to wait for me finish my work cause I'm afraid of the dark, driving me to places I want to go cause you don't want me to wake up early. I appreciate whatever you've done. Stay healthy and don't always get so stressed over your work! I'll accompany you to go watch sea someday. And chomp on your favourite crispy fries :D
>Mum: Another person who always worries about me. Parents are always worrying about their children isn't it. Always there to put my focus back on my studies and set my priorities straight. You don't like me to be very busy for cca and heck-caring my homework, I know. I'm gonna be even more busy for cca next year, but I'll do my best to get my time management sorted out. I'll take care of myself so don't worry! I'm a big girl, I know what's good what's bad. Take care of your health too, don't tire yourself out by doing too much housework! I'll try to help by errrrrrr, cooking! :)
>Sis: Although you're an ass sometimes, but thanks for being there :) I know you'd surely be reading this, but please don't tease me okay! It's quite rare to hear me saying these mushy stuff to you HAHA. Thanks for always listening to me say all my troubles out at night. I know you're quite stressed when I said those weird stuff to you last time, and you want me to stop talking by acting pekcek right! Hahaha thank goodness things are alright now. Sorry for making you so stressed and worried! May CCCS prosper! :) What's the next dish?
-3J'09: I can't really feel the bond in the class, is there any? Or maybe I was too lost in my own world to feel it. But still, I'll remember all the fun and madness in which we torture our teachers and do other equally fun stuff. I hope we can be closer next year :)
>Yilin: Hey you chicken backside! Being one of my closest friend, you must be darn honoured right :D Thanks for being there when I need someone to listen to my rants and troubles. Yea, I'll listen to you and stop thinking so much! You mustn't think so much too alright!! If there's anything, I'm always here :) Sorry for not smsing/ daoing you these few days k, I was really busy :X After I off the comp, I'll send you a text immediately. Promise! Haha next time lets go feast again! But not at Bukit Batok/ Timah okay! That place eat already will have laosai T.T And I'll see you in, 2 days! Are you excited already?? Hehehe ^^
(Edited: 2nd Jan 2010, 8.35pm)
-CCTV: Hello my dear friends! :) Thanks for the great times in school, lessons and all. I'm glad I'm together with yall this year cause you guys are great. I won't forget all those outings we had, all the fun and laughter. Nihon Mura, Ulu Pandan railway, mahjong + cooking session etc. Yea I realised we don't actually have a lot of outings this year, we shall have more next year! I know I'm a total idiot sometimes, I lose my temper very easily. Sorry! I'll try to change :)
>Charlene: The sensible one who's always there to give me advice, although you might not have realise it. Always scolds me when I've done wrong but still yea, you must help turn me into a nice girl :) Our love for Np and being stalkers brought us closer together. To be honest, sometimes I'm kinda scared of you when you're angry cause you look so kind and helpful hehe. Someday lets go somewhere and make our faces smaller! Hahaha! Thanks for all our retarded jokes and all your sharing of new targets on facebook. May your pet prosper lol, and hope your trees bear a lot a lot of fruits LOL. Don't feel so sian in Np room anymore alright! :)
>Tracy: My primary school friend and neighbour, I had known you for like, 7 years already! We've grown a lot closer this year right! We were like those hi-bye friends for the last two years. Oh I remembered we were quite good friends during primary school right haha. Yea you stupid little girl. Thanks for always trying to listen/ talk though most of the time I'd just go HAHA or Hmmm. I love gossiping with you cause we kinda share the same opinions and thoughts about people haha, okay but next time please don't give that I-am-gossiping-about-people look on your face if not the whole world will know what we're doing! More eating on the bus next year? Oh yea I forgot we're taking 240 hehe ^^
>Veron: You're like one of my closest friend I ever had, and definitely the one who knows most of my secrets. I miss the times talking to you on the bus in Shanghai and we'd just be honest and tell each other everything :) Remember our promise not to spill out any secret alright, if not I'd seriously just kill you. Haha thanks for always making us laugh with your retarded laugh and always being so slow with your responses to our jokes. And stop being so crazy over korean dramas, sometimes it gets really annoying haha. Luckily you don't watch them anymore phew. Thanks for being so straightforward at times and waking me up when I make mistakes. Thought of how you always call me chicken last time when we are squadmates haha. I still have a lot to say, but I think I'll save them when we ROD or when we split class okay. You have to be patient for good stuff :)
-Squadmates: I feel really really comfortable when I'm with these bunch of people, sense of belonging I guess? After all we've went through so much together and share the same experience. Camps, scoldings, pumpings, crying, marching etc. I'm very happy that I met you guys, this' is like our 3rd year together and around 216 more days we have to split already ): Lets all treasure our remaining time left together as a squad although it won't be easy- with everyone doing different stuff during cca activities, taking squad, staying in Np room etc. We can have more squad outings!! Oops I'm kinda guilty I didn't turn up for any squad outing this holiday, I was busy with stuff. Yup, 216 more days ):
>Sec3 squad I/Cs: Hey guys! It's nice taking s3 squad with you all, it'd been a good experience for me, I mean it :) Although sometimes we might have disputes and disagreement, I'm glad we are able to work them out. We'll continue to work well together yea? Then we can bring up s3's standard and prepare them for NCO-ship. It's gonna be quite a hard task but we shall do it together alright! :) Thanks Ongmin for always rushing us for stuff and making sure that we complete all our tasks on time. Thanks Pris for always being there to laugh at things together with me, haha. We must be more serious next time and lets go run and train our stamina someday! Thanks Matt for being such a joker. Sorry for leaving you out sometimes, this will not happen again /:
-Clique: 6 crazy and wild people hanging out together = madness! You must agree with me that we're a bunch of crazy (but awesome) people. Hanging out with you guys never fail to cheer me up. I can't really describe how it feels but it's just erm, AWESOME! :) I love you guys forever! And may our friendship continue to prosper even after we ROD! :) Please, I hope we won't become strangers after we ROD ): More outings to come? :)
>Vanessa: Good friend since two years ago. Thanks for listening to me when I rant about stuff and I enjoy listening to all your stories when we took bus last time. It's sad that we won't be taking bus together anymore since I have a direct bus home now, which means I'll most prolly have less time to talk to you. I know you can feel it too, we're distancing. You're busy taking your squad and I'm busy with mine too. And then we'll somehow hang out with different groups of people. I'm sorry for not reply your texts sometimes cause I'm lazy, it's somehow becoming like my bad habit. I shall try not to do that again! For all the studying sessions and teaching-me-physics sessions, thank you :) I just hope your lesbian tendency don't act up again.... HAHA! We'll try to maintain our friendship won't we? :)
>Oonhim: Oooonz, I know that you're an idiot, but still you're a great friend. It's really awesome and amusing to talk to you about stuff. We've had many fun times this year and I hope next year will be better :) Thanks for cheering me up and making me laugh my troubles away. We've had so many retarded moments together that I don't even remember all of them. Oh yea I remembered the study date that time with the weird man and our banana in bikini, oh yes and the security guard walking past us. Woohoo anw I still think that you're quite retarded, even more retarded than me! Haha have fun taking your squad and don't worry so much about them :) Sorry for turning down most of your date haha, I'll try to be more active next year!
>Felicia: Haven't been socialising with you much lately, but thanks for making all of us laugh over your stupid lame jokes and your theorem on guys LOL. Hope that you'd find your true love soon hahaha :) Oh yea and still remember DZS?!?! Plus all the stupid things *inside joke* Anyway you're damn crap and always the one making us laugh and feel relaxed woo~ Hope we'll continue to be good friends for many years ahead! :) And good luck as the CD head, I guess I'll need your help to teach me how to tie bandage for sprains haha!
(Okay I guess I'll pause here. Maybe I'll continue tomorrow or after school reopens haha. I still have like, a few groups of people to thank!)
Wow
Gasping for breath,
Sometimes I thought I could keep it together. Guess I was wrong. I was very sad when I saw those texts ): I was just trying to help. It really isn't easy, now I understand. But i'm still having a glimpse of hope that things will be fine again. Shall not let this incident affects my mood too much! Don't wanna go school tmr with a heavy heart and emo crap feeling /:
Really really hope 2010 will be a good year, 2009's bullshit. With so much things happening and so many people changing, this year really sucks T.T Will try to do a 2009 overview kinda thing if there's time. I'm like polishing my boots every single day and waking up damn early for parade rehearsal + cca. Tired but happy :)
Tmr shall be another good day I hope. If only I don't have a swollen and pain left eye, aching arm muscles and tired legs :X
Yes it's two more days to a new year, osm :)
Potassium Cyanide.
I don't really wanna keep this blog anymore /: I don't really have the mood to make my blog nice nice anymore. Haha compare my posts these few days/weeks to those posts that I wrote when I first created this blog. Lol big difference -.- Damn big. And I find it very amusing and fun to read my old blog posts :) Esp those on camps and outings haha damn nice to read :D
I think I'm gonna change to another blogging domain soon! So I'll be very excited and make my blog damn nice, then after a few months I'll change to another blog and the cycle goes on. Tumblr's nice :D Tumblr, or wordpress?????? But wordpress seems boring ._.
Met Veron at Boonlay mrt @ 830am. And I'm early okay! :) Wanted to pass Alfino some homework but he was late so we went to buy Mr Bean and waited until around 850+ and we decided to leave. Then we saw Char coming down from the escalator so we went to school tgth with her :)
Packing Np room,
Wiped the cabinets, tables, windows, medals. Moved some furnitures around, carried heavy boxes, arranged medals etc. I can't really remember what we did actually. But the Np room is now quite okay, quite neat, just that we need to unpack a few more boxes. They said that Np room's damn small, but it's actually okay what I think. I think it's almost the same size as the old underground Np room what. Hahaha, but it looks very refreshing :)
Left at around 12pm, went to the track there and meet my sis. Bused home and it only took arnd 8mins ley! So fast! HAHA.
Spent my time in the afternoon reading a girl's blog. HAHA told you I was a stalkerrrrrrr. Then took a nap from 4pm to 6pm lol. I seriously wonder how I'm going to fall asleep later ): Maybe I'll continue to read Jodi Picoult's Nineteen minutes :) It's quite nice lah, just that her books make me damn emotional -.- Last time I read 'The Pact', it's about a pair of teenage couple and the girl wanted the guy to help her kill herself, like, she wants him to shoot her. Okay something like that. And after reading this book I felt very troubled for a few weeks lol ._. It's really scary.
(I'M TRYING VERY HARD TO MAKE THIS POST LONG OKAY!!!!!!!!) So I shall type some random stuff.
Friday was bbq @ Costa Sands Paris Ris :) It was very very very boring in the first place but after that when the bbq started things got really fun :) The curry chicken my dad cook was damn awesome :D Too bad I didn't eat much cause I ate those bbq chicken wings, stingray(!!) and etc. When I ate the stingray I was thinking of the times when squadmates all grabbed our forks and rushed to get a bite of the stingray HAHA. And when Clique got one stingray we'd go somewhere far and eatttt. Hahaha, scavengers LOL. After we're all full, me, my sis, and both cousins went upstairs to play monopoly. The monopoly is very cute! Cause it's like boutique version, very girly, very pinky. Haha and instead of buying Orchard Road or whatever road, we have to buy stuff such as 'Rossie's Nail Salon' or something haha.
On Monday (which is yesterday), went to Je lib to do homework with Yilin :) Did one chinese essay and one maths worksheet. LOL I didn't really do the maths, I kinda copied haha -.- Anw the main point of the trip was, lunch! We each ordered, one bowl of noodle/ramen, 5 dumplings thing/jiao3 zi4 and a cup of bubble tea. Yilin didn't even finish half of what she ordered HAHA whereas I finished everything! Every single strand of noodle, all the dumplings (Plus one more from Yilin, which means I ate 6) and every single sip of bubble tea! Hahaha omg do I sound like I eat a lot? >D Is she eat very little, not I eat a lot. HAHAHA, after that we went back to the library and we got a very strategic position. Can see a cute guy's front view, and another one's side view hehe ^^ Do homework also do unit damn shuanggggg :) Too bad they left earlier than us awwww T.T We left around 4.30? Haha, and then went separate ways and headed home :) Quite productive I would say.
Haha oh yes, and I'm going to do homework tomorrow too! :) I really really wanna finish all my homework by tomorrow and I believe I can do it!!!!!!! Then I can go and play like mad alr ^^
OKAY, Veron, is this post long enoughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh? Hahaha.
It's weird how others (including me) keep saying "People change, people change". But they may be the ones who changed, isn't it. Yea I haven't really thought about it before, I guess I'm the one who changed.
